Friday, June 26, 2009
{ 3:53 AM }
I'm seriously tired of dramas. Both in school and family wise. Sometimes, i really wonder where i get all the strength to face every problem from, because looking back, to tell you the truth, i should have given up a long time ago. Some times in life, everyone seems to be looking down on you. Some even distance themselves away from you when you have not even done anything wrong...Why? sigh. I have been trying not to care about what ppl say or think about me but that's impossible. I've been trying to stay strong and not let anything affect me but I dont think that i can hold on any longer. Now, i have come to a state where i just dont care about all the things that are around me and also about all the things that might happen to me. I think that I might have just lost myself. Ppl move on but why is it hard for me to leave everything behind and just move on. Maybe because i made a mistake by keeping everyone and everything close to my heart, and now, when i lost them, i feel the pain terribly...I cant believe the holidays are over. I totally wasted them lah. But i must say that i have enjoyed some parts of it. havent completed my homework yet.. Science project is a complete disaster. I have forgotten everything about maths and science. Diffusion, algebra, peribahasa all seems like greek to me...I am not looking forward to school and I wonder how i am going to survive it. I just hope that i will not get into any trouble... Waiting for my aunt and cousins to come to my house. I spent the whole week slacking at home but i'm glad that i manage to get some rest. Later, need to annoy all the ppl for their temperatures again... Sorry ah. hahah:D Anyways, tmrw need to pack for school. Lazy but got no choice....
seriously. your outburst and short temperedness is killing me. I know that you are tired and frustrated but so am i but at least, i dont take it on others.. Patience is virtue. i am hanging on to that. i love you and i dont want to hurt you but some times, it just gets on to my nerves. maybe that's what keeping me away from you. .and the distance is getting bigger everyday. i am sorry if i have been a bad daughter. I noe that there's alot on your mind and i dont mean to be a burden to you.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
{ 4:29 AM }
I feel terrible. I seriously didnt mean it. It feels as if i dont care about you but that's not true. It's just that, it is getting hard for me to relate to you. I am really sorry.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
{ 3:17 AM }
Hello World! Just got back from Perth yesterday and i'm ready missing it, especially the weather:) It was a great trip. All the objectives were met and all of us have definately enjoyed and benefited from the trip. Although unexpected things happen during the trip, all of us manage to stick together and supported one another. It was a different experience having to stay in an apartment and having to cook on our own but i'm sure all these things just made the trip a memorable one. I will never forget the hot and cold recovery that we did there. It was AWESOME lah. I think, if noraida have extended the time, all of us would have froze in the swimming pool. hahah(: I'm sure that through this trip all of us have gotten closer and for me, i feel that the WHITES have just gotten STRONGER than ever(: I want to thank everyone that made the trip possible; Mdm Lee, Noraida and Ms Robin. I want to thank everyone for being crazy, fun, hilarious and enthu because you guys just made the trip more interesting and fun! YOU GUYS ROCKS! Now that all of us have been quarantine for 7 days, i hope that all of you will rest well and be online so that i would not be bored and have someone to talk to for the next 6 days. Have a great week ahead and see all of you when school opens:)
THE twentyonesomes: DAmanina NOISY MUCH
Beverly MURDERER IN TRAINING
Olivia PRO SPAGHETTI COOKER
Elizabeth SAMANTHA!
Nabilah BEE
Amelia BEBOLA
Aishah ETHU MUCH
Nameera BUS SINGER
Tabitha YELLOW SKINNYS
Tasneem WINDOW SEAT
Yuan Min PLEASE EH!
Zahirah KEBAB HUNTER
Janelle PRO CHICKEN AND FRUIT CUTTER
Elle MAEGAN
Farah MAGGIE MEE
Georgina KANGAROOOOO
Athirah KAKAK
Kim KOALA
Shafinas BIMBO/DR
Natalie POWER PHOTOGRAPHER
Geraldine LEADER OF THE GANG
oh, remember to take your temperature twice a day and track your movements. Hahaha!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
{ 7:37 PM }
Will be flying off to Perth tmrw morning. I'm happy and excited that the trip is on(: I am also thankful for the trip cos right now, everything is in a mess for me and I feel that i just need to get away from everything for a while. I know that I will not be able to solve my problems by running away from it, but i just need some time away and also some time to think about everything that is going on.. I am nearly done with the packing. THANK GOD! Might be going out later to find some things. I hope that this trip will bring the team closer and hopefully we will be stronger than ever. I also hope that we will have more fun than what we had in thailand last year. I just got the feeling that this trip is going to be an interesting and enjoyable one... Good luck with all the packing everyone! hahah(: Cya tmrw at the airport at 6.45am!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
{ 4:47 AM }
Had training this morning, courtwork. The weather was so hot! Did alot of agility stuff and ended of the training with a game. It was tiring but fun lah(; Went back home with Aishah and Nameera. So glad that i reached home early cause usually i only reach home at like 7pm or 8pm after training ends.. I am so tired right now. My body is aching ,wonder how I am going to survive gym tmrw morning. There's the perth briefing tmrw and I pray that the trip will not be postponed. I was actually looking forward for this trip besides, I dont want it to be my second trip postponed... Just got to know that I will be in charge of the food in Perth. Pls dont blame me if anyone gets food poisoning.heheh(: THE FOOD COM. Elizabeth Olivia Beverly Nabilah ROOMATES: NAMEERA, AISHAH, BEVERLY, NABILAH
I just realise that my roomates that i will be having, are the same roomates that i had during IYSC last year:D hahah.
Monday, June 8, 2009
{ 12:15 AM }
Went out yesterday with my old buddies whom i have not met for nearly 6 months... Went out with Haikal, Rizal, Hazrul, Afiq and Lin(: I miss all of them lots lah. They were still the same old ppl that i met a few years back and they have not changed at all and i am thankful for that. I'm glad that they are there for me everytime i need them and that they know me so well and that i could always depend on them. So, yesterday, all of us met at kallang mrt first. We had a group hug in the middle of the station and everyone was like staring at us. lol. Anyway, went to leisure park. Ate and caught up with everyone at the same time. I cant believe all of them so old ready. All sec 4 then left me in sec 2 and Lin in sec 3. wth lah... time really flies huh? Then, we all watched angels and demon. And i must say that the movie was good... After that we just walk walk around that we went our separate ways. I went back with Haikal and Afiq since we all live in the east. Later, got game at kallang. kind of excited i guess... Meeting Amy at kallang mrt at 5.45pm. I just hope that we will not be late and we wont get lost.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
{ 5:41 AM }
To who it may concern, why are you guys avoiding us? Just because she hates us and disappove all of you to meet us, you follow what ever she says?! what right do you all have to shut us away from your lives? All of us have been trying to help you but guess what?! We are all tired. TIRED of waiting; tired of trying; tired of hoping... I have never gave up on you guys but you know what? I am getting tired too. I make the effort to find out how all of you are doing but my efforts are wasted cos you dont even care about us any longer. At least, that is what it seems like, right now..You all treat us like strangers and you dont even know how worried we are about all of you. You dont even have the slightest clue how painful it is to see everything falling apart. I hoped and believed that you would turned out that day, i waited, but you did not turn out and you know what hurts more?! You dont even bother to call or answer all our messages... To tell you the truth, I HATE all of you right now for putting us in this condition. Oh, and dont bother switching your phones off cos you know what?! WE WONT disturb you any longer. Go handle everything on your own and dont look for me when you need help. You asked for it and now, you get it! For years, I have been trying so hard and now I dont have the strenght any more. I cant believe all of you. It was so easy for all of you just to forget about us huh? sigh. I have nothing left to say. I pity all of you but i think that it's time that I focused on my life instead of worrying and thinking about you all when you dont even appreciate or care what i or the rest of us are doing for you. I dont think that i can forget all of you but....sigh. I'm sorry but really, I cant go on with this any longer. So, all the best and have a great life ahead!
{ 5:13 AM }
NO BOUNDARIESSeconds, hours, so many daysYou know what you want, but how long can you wait?Every moment last forever.When you feel you've lost your way.What if my chances were already gone?I started believing that I could be wrong.But you give me one good reason.To fight and never walk away.So here I am, still holding onWith every step, you climb another mountainEvery breath, it's harder to believeYou'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanesTo get to that one thing.Just when you think the road is going nowhereJust when you almost gave up on your dreamsThey take you by the hand and show you that you canThere are no boundaries.There are no boundaries.I fought to the limit, to stand on the edgeWhat if today is as good as it gets?Don't know where the future's headingBut nothing's gonna bring me downI've jumped every bridge and I've run every lineI risked being safe but I always knew whyI always knew whySo here I am, still holding onWith every step, you climb another mountainEvery breath, it's harder to believeYou'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanesTo get to that one thingJust when you think the road is going nowhereJust when you almost gave up on your dreamsThey take you by the hand and show you that you canYou can go higher, you can go deeperThere are no boundaries above and beneath youBreak every rule 'cause there's nothing between youAnd your dreamsWith every step, you climb another mountainEvery breath, it's harder to believeYeah, there are no boundariesThere are no boundariesWith every step, you climb another mountainEvery breath, it's harder to believeYou'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanesThere are no boundaries.There are no boundaries.There are no boundaries. I just love this song. It really means alot(: And to me, if there's something out there that it worth fighting for, then, I will not hesitate to sacrifice and go through all the pain just to protect it and there will not be any boundaries that will stop me from getting to it...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
{ 11:19 PM }
what's wrong with you? Cant you give us a break? You ask me for my opinion then you get angry over it. If that's the case than you shouldn't have asked me right?! I am tired of your moods swings. All of us were forced to do things;even if we don't too but we have to agree to everything you say. Wth lah. I am sure we will a long scolding from you tmrw for i dont know what! Errr!!! i'm pissed..
{ 4:51 AM }
I am so tired. Everyday got training;morning and afternoon session. But i guess i cannot complain... We are in the sports school and that's what we are suppose to do; train, train and train. Even though I can get sick and tired of trainings, I have to admit that trainings can be fun too. hahah. But thank god there's no training tmrw! I seriously need the rest. Yesterday,had the maths olympiad thingy and i totally screw it up. I think that i will get 0 lah. I just guess the answer any how; at least i still use some commonsense not like janelle, look at the time then write it down as the answer.lol. Anyway, had gym this morning then, went for lunch. Since we had 4 hrs before the 14s training, yuan min, tabitha, olivia, zah and i decided to watch a movie. So, we bought tickets and watched Night at the Museum 2. It was okay lah but i prefer the first movie. I think the first one was more hilarious. After that cabbed to sch for 14s training. Took team photo(; Today's training was actually quite fun. I enjoyed it! hahah. After the whole thing, went back home with Sabina, Rochelle, Tab and Nam. I'm looking forward to tmrw cos i can finally wake up late.
