Living life

2009-07-18T20:24:00.000-07:00

This week has been a challenging week for me. I fell on monday during training and was sent to the physio immediately. My knee was swelling like crazy and i couldn't walk. So, i have to be on crutches. The next day, i went back to the physio and was thankful that i did not tore my acl. Found out that i dislocated my knee and tore a ligament and muscle. Its serious but i am thankful that it was not that serious until i have to go for an op or something. I suffered through the whole week. I was never in such pain before. I was depressed when i got to know that i cant train for like 3 months. 3 months is long man... I was looking forward to do alot of things but now, i dont think that i am able to do those things. I was looking forward to play for the 14s and stuff but i dont think that i am able to do that. ergh! Right now, i am focusing on recovering as fast as possible. I want to be ready for IYSC. And i will make sure that i play whole heartedly for the games.. Thank you to those that have helped and cheer me up. Especially, Beverly, Elizabeth, Tabitha, Janelle and my wonderful and super partner, Georgina! I LOVE YOU ALL:D hahah. I am sure that there's a blessing in disguise and last week definitely opened my eyes to alot of things,..

2009-07-06T04:45:00.001-07:00

Happy youth day! Woots! Didnt check-in yesterday but instead checking-in tmrw morning. Damn lazy to go back to school; especially when its so early in the morning. sorry that i'll be missing the game tonite but i'll see all of you tmrw in school. hahah:D Has been a really boring weekend. Didnt do much. BUT, i'm glad that i manage to see _ _ _ _ _ _ _ together again during the weekend. It has been a really long time since i saw them:D Going to be another interesting week i guess...

2009-07-01T23:24:00.000-07:00

Currently in the school's computer lab with tab, figuring out how to print out the english worksheets. I hate the coms cos they all have a mind of its own and they are so slow. Had training this morning. Tiring but okay lah. Yesterday, went to watch soccer at jln besar. they lost but i think that they played well lah . Later, got 14s training . so, now going back to hostel to rest:D

2009-06-26T03:53:00.001-07:00

I'm seriously tired of dramas. Both in school and family wise. Sometimes, i really wonder where i get all the strength to face every problem from, because looking back, to tell you the truth, i should have given up a long time ago. Some times in life, everyone seems to be looking down on you. Some even distance themselves away from you when you have not even done anything wrong...Why? sigh. I have been trying not to care about what ppl say or think about me but that's impossible. I've been trying to stay strong and not let anything affect me but I dont think that i can hold on any longer. Now, i have come to a state where i just dont care about all the things that are around me and also about all the things that might happen to me. I think that I might have just lost myself. Ppl move on but why is it hard for me to leave everything behind and just move on. Maybe because i made a mistake by keeping everyone and everything close to my heart, and now, when i lost them, i feel the pain terribly...

I cant believe the holidays are over. I totally wasted them lah. But i must say that i have enjoyed some parts of it. havent completed my homework yet.. Science project is a complete disaster. I have forgotten everything about maths and science. Diffusion, algebra, peribahasa all seems like greek to me...I am not looking forward to school and I wonder how i am going to survive it. I just hope that i will not get into any trouble... Waiting for my aunt and cousins to come to my house. I spent the whole week slacking at home but i'm glad that i manage to get some rest. Later, need to annoy all the ppl for their temperatures again... Sorry ah. hahah:D Anyways, tmrw need to pack for school. Lazy but got no choice....

seriously. your outburst and short temperedness is killing me. I know that you are tired and frustrated but so am i but at least, i dont take it on others.. Patience is virtue. i am hanging on to that. i love you and i dont want to hurt you but some times, it just gets on to my nerves. maybe that's what keeping me away from you. .and the distance is getting bigger everyday. i am sorry if i have been a bad daughter. I noe that there's alot on your mind and i dont mean to be a burden to you.

2009-06-24T04:29:00.000-07:00

I feel terrible. I seriously didnt mean it. It feels as if i dont care about you but that's not true. It's just that, it is getting hard for me to relate to you. I am really sorry.

2009-06-21T03:17:00.000-07:00

Hello World! Just got back from Perth yesterday and i'm ready missing it, especially the weather:) It was a great trip. All the objectives were met and all of us have definately enjoyed and benefited from the trip. Although unexpected things happen during the trip, all of us manage to stick together and supported one another. It was a different experience having to stay in an apartment and having to cook on our own but i'm sure all these things just made the trip a memorable one. I will never forget the hot and cold recovery that we did there. It was AWESOME lah. I think, if noraida have extended the time, all of us would have froze in the swimming pool. hahah(: I'm sure that through this trip all of us have gotten closer and for me, i feel that the WHITES have just gotten STRONGER than ever(: I want to thank everyone that made the trip possible; Mdm Lee, Noraida and Ms Robin. I want to thank everyone for being crazy, fun, hilarious and enthu because you guys just made the trip more interesting and fun! YOU GUYS ROCKS! Now that all of us have been quarantine for 7 days, i hope that all of you will rest well and be online so that i would not be bored and have someone to talk to for the next 6 days. Have a great week ahead and see all of you when school opens:)

THE twentyonesomes: D
Amanina NOISY MUCH
Beverly MURDERER IN TRAINING
Olivia PRO SPAGHETTI COOKER
Elizabeth SAMANTHA!
Nabilah BEE
Amelia BEBOLA
Aishah ETHU MUCH
Nameera BUS SINGER
Tabitha YELLOW SKINNYS
Tasneem WINDOW SEAT
Yuan Min PLEASE EH!
Zahirah KEBAB HUNTER
Janelle PRO CHICKEN AND FRUIT CUTTER
Elle MAEGAN
Farah MAGGIE MEE
Georgina KANGAROOOOO
Athirah KAKAK
Kim KOALA
Shafinas BIMBO/DR
Natalie POWER PHOTOGRAPHER
Geraldine LEADER OF THE GANG

oh, remember to take your temperature twice a day and track your movements. Hahaha!

2009-06-11T19:37:00.000-07:00

Will be flying off to Perth tmrw morning. I'm happy and excited that the trip is on(: I am also thankful for the trip cos right now, everything is in a mess for me and I feel that i just need to get away from everything for a while. I know that I will not be able to solve my problems by running away from it, but i just need some time away and also some time to think about everything that is going on..
I am nearly done with the packing. THANK GOD! Might be going out later to find some things. I hope that this trip will bring the team closer and hopefully we will be stronger than ever. I also hope that we will have more fun than what we had in thailand last year. I just got the feeling that this trip is going to be an interesting and enjoyable one... Good luck with all the packing everyone! hahah(: Cya tmrw at the airport at 6.45am!

2009-06-10T04:47:00.000-07:00

Had training this morning, courtwork. The weather was so hot! Did alot of agility stuff and ended of the training with a game. It was tiring but fun lah(; Went back home with Aishah and Nameera. So glad that i reached home early cause usually i only reach home at like 7pm or 8pm after training ends.. I am so tired right now. My body is aching ,wonder how I am going to survive gym tmrw morning. There's the perth briefing tmrw and I pray that the trip will not be postponed. I was actually looking forward for this trip besides, I dont want it to be my second trip postponed... Just got to know that I will be in charge of the food in Perth. Pls dont blame me if anyone gets food poisoning.heheh(:

THE FOOD COM. Elizabeth Olivia Beverly Nabilah

ROOMATES: NAMEERA, AISHAH, BEVERLY, NABILAH

I just realise that my roomates that i will be having, are the same roomates that i had during IYSC last year:D hahah.

2009-06-08T00:15:00.000-07:00

Went out yesterday with my old buddies whom i have not met for nearly 6 months... Went out with Haikal, Rizal, Hazrul, Afiq and Lin(: I miss all of them lots lah. They were still the same old ppl that i met a few years back and they have not changed at all and i am thankful for that. I'm glad that they are there for me everytime i need them and that they know me so well and that i could always depend on them. So, yesterday, all of us met at kallang mrt first. We had a group hug in the middle of the station and everyone was like staring at us. lol. Anyway, went to leisure park. Ate and caught up with everyone at the same time. I cant believe all of them so old ready. All sec 4 then left me in sec 2 and Lin in sec 3. wth lah... time really flies huh? Then, we all watched angels and demon. And i must say that the movie was good... After that we just walk walk around that we went our separate ways. I went back with Haikal and Afiq since we all live in the east.
Later, got game at kallang. kind of excited i guess... Meeting Amy at kallang mrt at 5.45pm. I just hope that we will not be late and we wont get lost.

2009-06-04T05:41:00.000-07:00

To who it may concern,
why are you guys avoiding us? Just because she hates us and disappove all of you to meet us, you follow what ever she says?! what right do you all have to shut us away from your lives? All of us have been trying to help you but guess what?! We are all tired. TIRED of waiting; tired of trying; tired of hoping... I have never gave up on you guys but you know what? I am getting tired too. I make the effort to find out how all of you are doing but my efforts are wasted cos you dont even care about us any longer. At least, that is what it seems like, right now..You all treat us like strangers and you dont even know how worried we are about all of you. You dont even have the slightest clue how painful it is to see everything falling apart. I hoped and believed that you would turned out that day, i waited, but you did not turn out and you know what hurts more?! You dont even bother to call or answer all our messages... To tell you the truth, I HATE all of you right now for putting us in this condition. Oh, and dont bother switching your phones off cos you know what?! WE WONT disturb you any longer. Go handle everything on your own and dont look for me when you need help. You asked for it and now, you get it! For years, I have been trying so hard and now I dont have the strenght any more. I cant believe all of you. It was so easy for all of you just to forget about us huh? sigh. I have nothing left to say. I pity all of you but i think that it's time that I focused on my life instead of worrying and thinking about you all when you dont even appreciate or care what i or the rest of us are doing for you. I dont think that i can forget all of you but....sigh. I'm sorry but really, I cant go on with this any longer. So, all the best and have a great life ahead!

2009-06-04T05:13:00.000-07:00

NO BOUNDARIES
Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.
What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries.There are no boundaries.There are no boundaries.

I just love this song. It really means alot(:
And to me, if there's something out there that it worth fighting for, then, I will not hesitate to sacrifice and go through all the pain just to protect it and there will not be any boundaries that will stop me from getting to it...

2009-06-03T23:19:00.000-07:00

what's wrong with you? Cant you give us a break? You ask me for my opinion then you get angry over it. If that's the case than you shouldn't have asked me right?! I am tired of your moods swings. All of us were forced to do things;even if we don't too but we have to agree to everything you say. Wth lah. I am sure we will a long scolding from you tmrw for i dont know what! Errr!!! i'm pissed..

2009-06-03T04:51:00.000-07:00

I am so tired. Everyday got training;morning and afternoon session. But i guess i cannot complain... We are in the sports school and that's what we are suppose to do; train, train and train. Even though I can get sick and tired of trainings, I have to admit that trainings can be fun too. hahah. But thank god there's no training tmrw! I seriously need the rest. Yesterday,had the maths olympiad thingy and i totally screw it up. I think that i will get 0 lah. I just guess the answer any how; at least i still use some commonsense not like janelle, look at the time then write it down as the answer.lol. Anyway, had gym this morning then, went for lunch. Since we had 4 hrs before the 14s training, yuan min, tabitha, olivia, zah and i decided to watch a movie. So, we bought tickets and watched Night at the Museum 2. It was okay lah but i prefer the first movie. I think the first one was more hilarious. After that cabbed to sch for 14s training. Took team photo(; Today's training was actually quite fun. I enjoyed it! hahah. After the whole thing, went back home with Sabina, Rochelle, Tab and Nam. I'm looking forward to tmrw cos i can finally wake up late.

2009-05-31T21:47:00.000-07:00

Later got game at kallang. I am not in the mood to play. Feel damn tired. It totally does not feel like a holiday to me... Wanted to go out but the weather damn hot so decided to stay at home. See how lazy i am?! sigh... Tmrw got maths olymiad in the morning then training in the afternoon.

2009-05-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

Had a very long day yesterday. Woke up damn early to go to school for the North zone carnival umpiring thingy. Amy waited for me at the boarding side then we walked together. Met Kim, Tab, Beth and Mdm Chan. Then, Claudia and Shawallah came. Athirah was super late. Umpired about 8 games with Amy. Was supposed to umpired the sec school games but changed half way with Shawallah and Athirah to umpire the primary school games. It rained and everyone was giving Mdm Chan excuses for the games to be stop so that we could go back early. Then there was a shoot out to determine the winner. After tthe whole thing, Tab, Kim, Beth, Athirah, Amy and I went to causeway. Kim had to go off early so she didnt join us for lunch. The rest of us went to kfc. Slack over there for more than an hour. ATHIRAH made me took the bus with her. she very lame lah. She said she scared of mrts... Wth lah. So, went back with Athirah. I went to my aunt's house for some function and finally got home at 2am .

2009-05-28T23:29:00.000-07:00

Haziq on exhibition

Sim, John and Chris

2D being 2D; noisy, loud, crazy, FUN

Made too much noise untill kena scolding by the teacher next door

hello world!

As you can see, i am starting to blog again(;

Checked out from boarding this morning then called a cab and went home and the ride cost me nearly 20 bucks! Check out was insane this morning. Everyone was rushing like mad and to make it worst, it was damn hot and I had to carry 4 super duper heavy bags home. This week was filled with TESTS and I hope I did well for all of them especially maths. The new council president was also elected. Congrats to Habibah! But i think that all four of them did well for the speech. So, good job to everyone. Had cluster activity last night. It was okay lah. I enjoyed the food the most. hahah(;The holidays are here but still have to go back to school everyday for training. I'm actually looking forward for the Perth trip on the 13th though. hahah. Have to go back to school tmrw morning for the umpiring thingy.So many things to do yet so little time. It really is going to be a busy holiday...